Too Early.

I experience life way too quickly. I think I'm ready for so many things but in reality, I'm not. I think everyone has this dilemma at my age, but I think I took it a bit to extreme. Getting married, being widowed, deep in debt, it's all way too much for me to handle right now. I feel like I have so much to do and look forward to but really, what is there? What am I looking forward to? I feel like all these life lessons all came at me full blast and I havent had time to process it. Slowly, I'm beginning to realize who I am and what I want out of life, but it is really coming slowly. But I DO NOT want to speed it up, because that's what got me in this scenario. I'm realizing that life really IS short, the older I get the less time I have. There's no time for me to procrastinate, but in order to keep learning I need to slooow down. This is such a harsh reality.

(I love when i realize things when I write.)